I HAVE LEARNED THAT GRIEF HAS IT'S OWN AGENDA, IT ARRIVES WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT AND LEAVES ON ITS OWN ACCORD.

Grief - Something I realise now that we all must face one
day, in one form or another, and we will all face it our
own way, there is no right way to grieve, each must
work through the sorrows of life, the loss of whatever
or whoever we hold dear, this is a subject I never
wanted to know anything about and yet, I have learned
to make Grief and Sorrow my friends incase they call
to visit me again one day, I never want to be caught
unaware again.

Looking back, I don't know that I handled this part of
my life particularly well but having said that, I don't
know what I would have done differently. For a long
time I kept the sorrow inside of me which was bad
for my health, I was very thankful to discover that I
could write about it in the form of poems and in
that way I learned to express it.

So even though Grief does have its own agenda,
arriving when you least expect it and leaving on its
own accord, I found I could learn to face it and
manage it and not let it overwhelm me anymore.

A poem I wrote in the midst of my journey with
Grief...


SLIPPING AWAY

Contained within these pages
Is more than you can see
Mingling with the ink
Is the very heart of me

The words are laced with passion
That I just can't express
To communicate heartache
To write down distress

These pages should be drowning you
They cry a pool of tears
They carry packed emotion
that I've gathered through the years

I try to ignore them
They haunt me even more
The words they overtake me
Leaving me hurt and raw

Where have they been hiding
These words of my heart
Seeing them on paper
Is pulling me apart

How do you write a scream
That never ever ends
Speak to me indifference
You'd make a great friend.